Uncensored

Sesuai janji di post terakhir di Instagram, gw akan bahas salah satu perikop. Salah satu kisah ‘ga nyaman’ yang jarang bisa dijawab orang Kristen adalah mengenai perikop 2 Raja-Raja 2:23-24 mengenai nabi Elisa.

Sekilas ceritanya ga masuk akal dan menimbulkan banyak pertanyaan buat gw; why did God allowed such thing? Is it fair (Just) to bereaved children? Did He lose His “love” in this pericope?

#Uncensored ga secara langsung menyajikan konteks (historis, bahasa asli, sosial) perikop ini, hanya implikasinya. Let’s take a look and reflect back to my questions about His “love”.

1. Kata “anak-anak” ini origin-nya ילדים (yeladim) yang artinya “young men that have grown to maturity”. Kata yeladim ini juga dipake di beberapa tempat lain, misalnya di Kitab Daniel saat umur Daniel setidaknya 18 tahun (further readings: Xenophon, Persian King, in Cyropaedia), atau di Kejadian 44:20, yeladim digunakan untuk menjelaskan Benyamin yang saat itu kira2 berumur 30 tahun. Translasi oleh NIV pun menggunakan “youths”. Saya jadi terpikir, dari saya bayi sampai segede ini pun, orang tua saya masih memanggil kami, “anak-anak” nya. Mungkin kira-kira begitu bayangannya.

2. Di konteks ini ada 42 orang, keluar dari kota saat Elisa sedang mendaki. Kalo dibayangin sejumlah 42, berkumpul, keluar dari kota cuma buat mengutuk orang, apalagi dengan konteks “botak” dan “naik”, ini jelas tujuannya menghina nabi Tuhan, bukan iseng ngatain sembarangan orang yg lagi lewat.

3. Cemooh “botak” ini berhubungan sama konteks sosial di zaman tersebut. Mengutip buku ini: They weren’t just making fun of a bald man; they were attacking his calling as a prophet of God. They were provoking him to “go up” like his predecessor, Elijah, who “went up” in a whirlwind amd chariots of fire. (Mengenai Elia ini bisa dibaca di 2 Raja-Raja 2:11)

Yang menarik, sebelum kejadian ini, di Imamat 26:21-22, kira-kira Tuhan bilang sama orang Israel “If you walk contrary to me and will not listen to me… I will let loose the wild beasts against you, which shall bereave you of your children”.

Dari bagian ini gw belajar bahwa menggali Alkitab itu susah-susah gampang. Sekilas kayaknya Tuhan keji, tapi itu kacamata kita kalo kita ga tau kalo sebelumnya (di Imamat) Tuhan udah wanti-wanti. KITA yang maunya liat Tuhan hanya kasih, padahal Tuhan juga punya sifat adil. Perikop ini nunjukin God is being true to His words.

Yang paling gw suka bagian ini ditutup dengan penyaliban Yesus: penebusan.

Excerpt from #Uncensored:


As we read about those young men jeering at Elisha to “go up,” we can hear the faint echo of crowds jeering at Jesus on the cross, “Come down. If you are really the Son of God, come down.” As those boys experienced the bears’ clawing and ripping as God’s just judgment, so also did Jesus experience it all the more on our behalf. And there on the cross, where God’s infinite love and justice collided, He paid our debt in full and cried out, “It is finished.”

With Christ died on the cross, God fulfilled His promise to deliver His people and all the prophecies in the Old Testament. He also proves Himself to be Love and Just at the same time. When I received Christ, I tend to look at His Love without looking at the magnitude of my sins. I should be punished, yet He took the fall. My sins as a Christian didn’t go unpunished, Christ crushed for it.

“Christ didn’t die for you, He died as you.”

[#ProfoundReading from #Uncensored by Brian Cosby, page 43-45]

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Idolatry

Idolatry

Dulu gw sempet bikin hashtag #SelesaiBaca buat sharing isi buku yang gw udah selesai baca supaya orang tertarik juga buat baca buku. Banyak juga yang nanya langsung kenapa gw suka banget baca buku? Jadi gw akan coba sharing detil-detil buku bacaan gw yang menarik. Tujuannya masih sama, semoga jadi pada tertarik baca buku. Gw pake hashtag #ProfoundReading ya!

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Dari buku #Uncensored, bagian [You can do it. God can help.] ini gw baca berulang-ulang. “How many times did I say that in my heart?” Rasanya ga keitung, apalagi ini sesuai banget sama spirit buku-buku Self Help yang berjajar di best seller. Ga kebayang sebelumnya kalo ternyata.. ini termasuk penyembahan berhala (idolatry). Brian Cosby jelasin bahwa ga sedikit gereja yang menerapkan konsep ini dalam kebaktiannya; misalnya do your best and with God, you can achieve anything! Buat gw ini lumayan menyentuh Prosperity Gospel (yang gak akan gw bahas lebih panjang di sini) tapi yang menarik adalah kalau gw liat lagi, pemikiran seperti ini satu rumpun dengan konsep: you can earn God’s blessing. If you’re a Christian, you know we can’t earn it by our efforts.

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Kenapa sih ini termasuk idolatry? Menurut Brian Cosby, karena pemikiran ini “magnifying the gifts of God above the Giver Himself” dan menurut gw ini sangat tepat dibilang idolatry. Kalau di perumpamaan Anak yang Hilang (Lukas 15:11-32), kita ini seperti anak yang lebih menginginkan harta Bapa ketimbang pribadi Bapa itu sendiri.

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Dari sini pun gw belajar lebih lagi soal ‘grace’. Semakin belajar, semakin ngerti juga kenapa Paulus dari yang mengakui “di antara semua rasul Kristus, aku yang paling berdosa” bisa sampe bilang “di antara semua pendosa, aku yang paling berdosa”. (We’ll talk about sin later)

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Next gw akan share mengenai pembahasan Brian Cosby mengenai 2 Raja-Raja 2:23-24, salah satu “ayat sulit” yang sering dipakai ateis untuk mempertanyakan Tuhan dalam Alkitab.

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Don’t hesitate to comment or your thoughts on any area you think I should improve about my sharing. Thank you!

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[#ProfoundReading from #Uncensored by Brian Cosby, page 36-38]

Peter’s Doubt

Peter’s Doubt

2016 is a road.

There is no starting point, it is simply connected with the previous year, but ended somewhere. Right now. I was sitting with a random, thoughtless, not-so-cool pose after my sister hustle me. I guess it’s a normal request cause Sumba cars may take turns to run all over my body. As you can see, I seized the moment and pose effortlessly. We laughed off that picture, and sure it leaves a warm memory. I have a faith that my sister will notice what’s behind me, be it a car, a motorcycle, or a person. She won’t let them hurt me under her watch.

I picked “I will walk by faith, not by sight” to be my 2016 guidance. I tried to live but I didn’t bear much fruit. I was drowned in a whirpool of my own feelings instead of trusting His promise. As I continuously doubt Jesus and His Plan, I unconsciously walked back to my own mediocrity. I walked by sight. I didn’t trust Jesus like I trust my sister back then on the road. 2016 was definitely ran all over my body.

I (The devil in me) told myself 2017 is just another year. It doesn’t matter. New Year Resolution doesn’t work. Rolf Dobelli, explained it very beautifully in his book why New Year Resolution is just a hype.

However, it is really helpful (for me) to pray and pick one verse/one principality to practice it throughout the year. I felt that if I’m being specific about which spiritual attribute I want to improve, I shall be growing into a more Bible-encompassed person instead of world’s ever-changing standard. Ultimately, as a Christian, being the manifestation of Christ’s love.

Several days ago, God touched my heart when I read a line from Bill Wilson’s book: “everybody wants to walk on water but nobody wants to leave the boat.” Apparently, it’s correlated with Peter’s story. Well, Peter actually left the boat, but he almost drowned when he was terrified, then Jesus said Peter doubt Him (Matthew 14;31) that’s why he drowned.

Then I realized, I repeatedly doubt. I’m a Doubter. I know it sounds like daughter but no, don’t make prove my biological sex.

Bill Wilson said when he came to New York to start Metro Ministries, it took measure faith. But to stay for 28 years, it took extreme faith. To be able to walk on water to come to Jesus, it took extreme faith. To leave to boat? Measure faith!

Do I have the measure faith to leave my boat before I asked Jesus to let me walk on water? Am I going through the process from measure faith to extreme faith by walking with Him?

I have prayed and decided, in 2017, I want to learn to two things: to leave my boat when Jesus said come, banish out doubt & have faith in His supremacy.

Maybe I’ve been asking Jesus for miracles; God, let me walk on water!  Maybe Jesus hasn’t tell me to come? or maybe Jesus already told me to come, but my doubt drowns me? Or am I still on my boat?!

I drowned so many times in 2016, but He always immediately reached out and grabbed me. In 2017, I will conquer my fear to leave my boat. I will walk on water, through the wind and storms, without doubt.

Then Peter called to Him, “Lord, if it’s really you, tell me to come to you, walking on the water.” “Yes, come,” Jesus said. So Peter went over the side of the boat and walked on the water toward Jesus. But when he saw the strong wind and the waves, he was terrified and began to sink. “Save me, Lord!” he shouted. Jesus immediately reached out and grabbed him. “You have so little faith,” Jesus said. “Why did you doubt me?

Matthew 14:28‭-‬31 NLT